me n my syg have gone thro hard time dis 2 3 days n also dia whole time we are together... I love him so much till i dunno how to say... im trying to do the best things for us even i think it is a very hard thing for him n also for me...I love both my parent n him...i want to be like him...I admire him bcoz he loves his family so much..im sorry to cause dis hardness to him..i really dun want to.. coz i really love him.. im scared.. till i think i cant stand it to bacame like this far with him..aq menangis so hard n aq rsa cm xnk gi kje besok..bengkak2 la mata aq esok.huhu..mesti kak Nurul tya aq gaduh ke dgn bf..huhu..Kak Nurul banyak ilmu n org yg ska berpiki...i think today yg aq nangis bukan sbb mara... but im sorry to him n sad bout how i am to him.. i am not such a gud girl to him.. i olwes hurt him... yes i know he said dont know if he will get bored with me..n yes i am sad to hear that sentence n im scared if that happen.. i am trying my best...and jika mmg xde jodoh kmi..Tuhan yang lebih mgetahui apa yg terbaek tuk kami..wlupun rsa nya sukar n ambil masa tuk terima..insyaallah one day we will accept...however aq akn sllu berdoa utk kesejahteraan n kebahagiaan kami. ada utk each other...
aq ni gigs a.k.a. lurus bendul... bukan itu aq nyatakan sebagai alasan.. kdg2 aq sendri xtaw apa aq ptot buat..n btolke ape yg aq pikir??? bila keputusan yg aq buat tu salah.. aq admit aq mmg xpndai nk pki smpai make things complicated... kdg2 aq rsa aq xlyk utk spa2... tp org kata Tuhan itu Maha Mengetahui.. aq berserah... Dia yg lebih tahu.. dalam hati aq, aq mahu ke akhir hayat dengan si dia.. apa yang aq lalui dengan Jac selama ni sangat beerti bagi aq... he done everything for me, he accept me as i am wlaupun aq ni byk btol songehnye...org laen tak mampu bertahan dgn aq...n aq juga xpernah tahan dgn org laen.. wallahualam smpai bila Jac mampu bertahan.. moga jodoh kami panjang.. "b tgu mami ya.. mami xkan pernah berubah mcm mami sma2 b di ums dulu...mami tetap nakal n manja dgn b.."
mami ikhlas... Love U so much Hubby Jacques Seliong..
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